It has been a season of big changes, and my poor little heart is still trying to catch up.
I had a conversation with a friend the other night about contentment, and whether or not we felt like our lives were moving forward. On one hand, I’m fulfilled and content where I am, but on the other… I know that there is so much more to come. And part of me is ready for that.
Thing is, if I’m being completely honest, I’m a comf0rt-zone person. (Hey, c’mon. Stop with the nodding and the eye-rolling – I’m fully aware that I’m stating the obvious.)
I’d be the last one to instigate big change. The last one to allow my neat little world to get messy with new things. The last one who would volunteer to hold things and relationships dear to me with an open hand, in order to reach for better.
But maybe I’m stuck in neutral.
What if it’s fear that’s keeping me where I am? Is what I stand to lose really more important to me than what could be waiting on the other side? Maybe it’s time to pull back the curtain and make brave decisions, by the grace of God. And that sounds a lot larger than it likely is. I guess the bottom line is that I want to start operating with a little more faith, and a little less fear. To continue to learn how to view things and situations through the lens of eternity, rather than allowing them to be colored by my “right now.”
We’re offered so much hope, and so many promises, and yet so often I remain in what is comfortable; risking great things by maintaining my death grip on security.
Am I willing to be insecure in this life in order to be made fully secure in the life that matters?
We’re never promised that this life will be easy.
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” ~ John 16:33 (NIV)
In fact, I think it could be said that the most promising seasons of growth come through adversity.
It’s a bold statement to say that I’m ready to risk it all to obtain Jesus. Painful changes? Those words fling the doors open wide and invite them in for tea and cake. But then again, as someone once said to me, “reality actually is no respecter of persons or personal space. It just kinda crashes through the door.” We’re not in control anyways, but somehow we convince ourselves that we can shut ourselves in, creating and controlling our own little ecosystem that will be protected from outside interference. (And yes, I know…
two three door analogies in one paragraph. I have no excuse.)
I’m challenged again today to put my confidence in the Lord, because confidence in ourselves (or in other human beings) will always fail us. I’m willing to learn how to hold this life with an open hand and to trust in the Lord for my security, in order to gain through Him what I cannot on my own. I’ve been reading and studying the Songs of Ascent lately, and you guys… It’s pretty much exactly this. You have to let go of where you are, in order to go higher.
Sign this cautious, comfort-zone-loving, change-avoiding girl up.
Those who trust in the Lord are as secure as Mount Zion;
they will not be defeated but will endure forever.
Just as the mountains surround Jerusalem,
so the Lord surrounds his people, both now and forever.
The wicked will not rule the land of the godly,
for then the godly might be tempted to do wrong.
O Lord, do good to those who are good,
whose hearts are in tune with you.
But banish those who turn to crooked ways, O Lord.
Take them away with those who do evil.
Psalm 125 (NLT)